(I’m joining Lisa-Jo and her Five Minute Fridays. Rules are: for only five short, bold, beautiful minutes. Unscripted and unedited. We just write without worrying if it’s just right or not. Won’t you join us?)
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There are days that I dream big, that I can see my goals in reach, that I know the next step and I eagerly run toward it.
Those days are few.
Occurring much more often are the days that I look at my dreams in fear. I doubt my ability, I doubt my progress, and I long to just go back to bed.
Those are the days when, at their very essence, I find myself afraid.
Afraid of failure and afraid of success.
Afraid of change and also afraid of becoming stuck -
Afraid of finding my feet cemented in place, with my goal just outside the reach of my fingertips.
They are also the days when I am afraid of reaching my goal – of grabbing on to it so tightly that it breaks into a million unrecognizable pieces.
And I think, what if this fear wins? If this fear wins – what opportunities will I miss? What blessings will I deny? How much happiness will I turn away?
So, despite the fear, I’m too afraid to be afraid.
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I love your quote about there being a fine line between courage and foolishness! Great point! I also loved your questions. They really made me think. I pray that you can find answers to them that will bring you bliss. Cheers. Shanae
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Oh yes! There is this kind of fear: “And I think, what if this fear wins?” No doubt about that. I’m with ya on that. I wrote on a different kind of fear.
Glad I found ya from Lisa-Jo’s.
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I have missed so many opportunities due to fear maybe next time I will learn to be more afraid of being afraid.
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I found myself nodding my head along with you as I read your words…thank you so much for sharing your heart today. Beautiful post. Blessings!